CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 6 What Not To Say

A small sampling of the many things not to say. These are a few that really stung the most, especially since they were said by family and close friends.

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 5 Memorial

 

Again, this was a hard one for me, because we didn't have a memorial service or funeral and Julian doesn't have a grave site (his bear containing his ashes lives in my bedroom - right where I want it). But I do plan on having a memorial for my little guy, we just haven't found the right way to commemorate Julian yet. But this image represents almost all my physical memories I have of Julian, and I plan on using the contents in this box to create a memorial display in our home. 

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 4 Most Treasured Item

My most treasured items of Julian are the special pictures and video clips I have of him. But I love his hand cast. We also have one of his foot, but it didn't turn out as well as the hand. A picture of each of my babies sit altogether in my special place.

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 3 After Loss Self Portrait

This was a hard one, but I chose one with myself and both my surviving children. They were and are my strength and motivation to continue to find ways enjoy life everyday.

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 2 Self Portrait Before Loss

This is the last image I took of myself while pregnant with the twins. It was the morning before I delivered, I was uncomfortable, but excited and full of joy. I love this picture and I'm so glad I took it.

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012: Day 1 Sunrise (or something else)

I don't want to lie to you or myself - I.am.NOT.a.morning.person. I don't do sunrises (and both my surviving children love me enough to sleep in most days). I want to find or create an image for everyday this month, so I will find something for this post and edit the entry when I do.

Day 1 Sunrise:

So my children have been waking up a little earlier this week. And I caught the sunrise two days in a row, but today (really day 5) I ran to grab a camera. This is where I see the sunrise most days, that's when I manage to actually catch it. It's been a long time since I took a picture of the sun coming up for the day, it is really quite a beautiful sight. I know I have two specific sunrise pictures from the past that I love, I am going to try to find them and post them.

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012 & Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

I've been taking a break lately. But I've decieded to make an effort to take part in the "Capture Your Grief" project for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I can't promise that I will have a picture for everyday, but I will try my best to find or take one for the days that speak to me.

As for October being Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month, we are 3 days into the month and today is the first day I have mentioned it, out loud, to anyone. I talked about it with my dear friend who suffered the loss of a pregnancy today, and I briefly discussed some possible plans for the 15th with my husband - but nothing definite yet. We will see, but I do know I want to do something special to remember Julian on the 15th.